Afraid

*puter lagu Don't You Remember-nya Adele

Sehari sebelum ultah Little Butterfly..mau galau ah..

Ketakutan-ketakutan itu memuncak..ketakutan menerima kenyataan hidup..ketakutan kehilangan orang yang paling cintai..

Saya tau Tuhan punya rencana yang indah..saya tahu Tuhan telah mempersiapkan sesuatu yang indah suatu saat nanti..

Tapi..

Ketakutan ini tetap saja bercengkerama dengan hati dan pikiran setiap saat..
Ketakutan yang berjabat dengan insting dan kenyataan yang seolah saling mendukung..

Is it wrong if I only want to be comfortable..to be secure..to be needed by you..to be loved like hell by you..
I'm afraid if tomorrow you will forget my birthday..
Then finally you will perfectly forget me for the rest of your life..

Should I loose two important man in my life in less than 1 year..
People said if you are afraid to loose something...actually you already lost it..

I'm afraid..really afraid..
Please don't blame me..what happen with us..the way you act..make me feel afraid of all..

I really wish what I'm afraid of  now will never happen tomorrow..or next day..or next week..or next year..
I really wish..I still can see your love in your eyes..I still can read your love in your words..I still can hear your love in your voice..

And I really wish GOD will strengthen me..

I'm afraiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiddddddddd..*mewek
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