I'm so sorry..really sorry for all the things i've done..i know i didn't make you proud of me yet..i know i didn't make you happy yet..i know i'm only the trouble maker in this family..always do whatever i want..sometimes didn't hear what you said..didn't care about you..but you always love me with all my weakness..
and without you say it..i know that you love more than my other siblings..and sorry for all the things that hurt you..all the things that you always forgive me..so sorry..
Pa..i always pray that you will get well soon..i always pray that i still have time to make you proud of me..to make you happy with all achievements i get..but i always pray also the best for you..looking you struggle with your condition is hurting me so much..
Pa..i know you don't wanna disturb me with all of your sickness..with all sickness you feel..i know you wanna me be success with my career and my life..i know the most thing that you want from me is watching me in my master graduation day..i promise you Pa..i will do my best to reach it..soon Pa..soon..and i know you always pray for my happiness..in every middle night you wake up for praying..i always hear your whisper for my happiness..you always pray someday you will see me stand with someone by my side with my real happiness smile..
I only can pray that GOD will give me more time to do my best for you..please Pa..be strong for a while..and i will be strong enough too..i know Pa..without you said it this morning..that you love me so much..i know since i was child that you love me so much..all the things you've done for me..are so meant for me..you made me be like this Pa..
Ma..i'm sorry for everything i ever said..for everything i ever did to you..sorry for our argument..and sorry for the terrible things i've done before..i know Ma..that your love for me never disappear although a lot of bad things i did..i know your hugs always makes me calm when i need it the most..i know only in your warm hugs i will back when i wanna cry a lot..Ma..i know that it's hurt you..the sickness that you feel..but you still take care of us..you hide your sickness from me..always give me motivation to pass the day..always help me to pass the hardest day of my life..
Pa..Ma..i know i'm blessed when i have you..i only can pray to the GOD..that HE will give me strength to do my best for you..for making your dream come true..for making you happy..for making you proud of me..i promise Pa, Ma...
Pa..Ma..looking your old pictures made me so sad..remember the moment when you still can go for travelling by yourself..remember everything you said to me..made me sad..T_T
Pa..i remember you said to me..that you can't give me a lot of money..you can't give me richness..you only can give me education..you only can teach me..how to be brave woman..how to be tough woman..how to be independent woman..i will be Pa..i will be as you dream of..i will be Pa..
Ma..i always remember how warm your hug when i cried a lot..i remember that time you said to me that you wanna see me to always have a dream and try hard to catch it..i will Ma..i will..
I can't imagine my life without both of you..but i always pray the best for both of you..but i'm trying my best Pa, Ma..
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