Kalo ditanya mimpi itu apa..kadang bingung sendiri deh apa seh mimpi itu..?
When I was child..When all of students were asked "what is your dream in the future?"
There were an answer "want to be a doctor".."want to be a teacher".."want to be an engineer"..etc.
But I only could answer.."I want to be a butterfly"..
If you asked me why I answered like that..I don't know the answer too..for me when I was child..butterfly is beautiful..and can fly..can go there..can go here..hehehe
Maybe..I wanted to be a tour guide that time..or maybe driver..or maybe backpacker traveller..because they can go to a lot of place..but then my teacher and my parent were angry with me..they said it is not a good dream..
So I'm afraid to have a dream again since that moment
Then I realize when I grow up..I never have a dream..I only pass my life day by day..like daily activity..from wake up until I close my eyes again..
Sometimes..I'm feeling that I like it something so much..I want it so much..I thought it was dream..but then when I got it..when I reached it..yes for sure I'm happy..but I feel like it is not me..not my way..
What I did during my 27 years old only to make other dreams come true..my parent's dream..
I'm happy for it..although sometimes..I feel..it is not me..not really what I want..but when I see them happy..I'm happy..although sometimes when I reach it..I feel the emptiness in my heart..
Nowadays..I start to create my dream..to reach my dream..
My dream starts when you teach me to have a dream..when you remind me how to dream..when you ask me what I want..
Now..if people ask me..what is my dream..I can answer it surely..
"It is a simple dream, to be with you is my only dream"
