Rabu, 12 Februari 2014

L.I.F.E

Life will not give you what you want but life will give you what is perfect..but the perfection is only how you give a respond to what's happen in life..

All is about your perspective and your respond..

This is the truth about life..there is no bad things in life..everything happen with the reason..everything happen to make we learn about life..

I often ask to myself why bad things always come to me..
Then I realized lately..that there is no bad things in life..only how we respond to what happen in life..

I lost My Beloved Dad last week..
He passed away after a long time he fight with his sickness..
I'm sad..yes really really really sad..I lost the only man in the world who will never hurt me no matter it takes..the only man who always support and think about my happiness..
And until now..I'm still sad..I'm still crying in the deepest of my heart every time I remember him..when I'm writing his story here..my tears are falling down..
There was a moment when I couldn't think anything..like there is a black hole in my mind and heart when I realized that My Dad passed away..

But then..I remember that I still have My Mom and My Lil Princess who feel more sad than me..and I must take care of them first than think and feel sad about losing My Dad..
Then I wake up..I smile although I can't lie if it is fake smile..at least I will not show in front of them my tears..I must be strong to make them strong..I must be happy if I want to make other happy..

I learn it from My Dad..I learned how to find a solution than blame or is trapped in sadness..
Then after 3 days My Dad passed away..I started to work..I tried to make all back into normal life..same like when My Dad was still alive..
Because I know..this is the best way from God..and My Dad will always live in my heart..and life must go on..
And the thing that made me more strong was the thinking that although I cried for one week and felt sad for 6 months..My Dad will never come back..because I can't fight with GOD..this destiny is already written by GOD..so we must accept it..

Maybe..my way to look..to respond..to act about something is different than other..but this is me..this is my way..
And this is life taught me..

Now..I only can be strong..and pray for My Dad every time I remember him..

Dad..you will always live in my heart..
I love you so much..
I believe that you are in heaven with GOD now..and you are happy now..





In memoriam My Beloved Dad
Born, 24 August 1954
Died, 4 February 2014