Dream

Dream..what is dream..?
Kalo ditanya mimpi itu apa..kadang bingung sendiri deh apa seh mimpi itu..?

When I was child..When all of students were asked "what is your dream in the future?"
There were an answer "want to be a doctor".."want to be a teacher".."want to be an engineer"..etc.
But I only could answer.."I want to be a butterfly"..

If you asked me why I answered like that..I don't know the answer too..for me when I was child..butterfly is beautiful..and can fly..can go there..can go here..hehehe
Maybe..I wanted to be a tour guide that time..or maybe driver..or maybe backpacker traveller..because they can go to a lot of place..but then my teacher and my parent were angry with me..they said it is not a good dream..
So I'm afraid to have a dream again since that moment

Then I realize when I grow up..I never have a dream..I only pass my life day by day..like daily activity..from wake up until I close my eyes again..
Sometimes..I'm feeling that I like it something so much..I want it so much..I thought it was dream..but then when I got it..when I reached it..yes for sure I'm happy..but I feel like it is not me..not my way..

What I did during my 27 years old only to make other dreams come true..my parent's dream..

I'm happy for it..although sometimes..I feel..it is not me..not really what I want..but when I see them happy..I'm happy..although sometimes when I reach it..I feel the emptiness in my heart..

Nowadays..I start to create my dream..to reach my dream..

My dream starts when you say "I love you"..my dream start when you say "I'm yours"..my dream starts when you say "we are one team, we have one dream, our dream"..

My dream starts when you teach me to have a dream..when you remind me how to dream..when you ask me what I want..

Now..if people ask me..what is my dream..I can answer it surely..
"It is a simple dream, to be with you is my only dream"

2 days

Two days in 1 week that you don't need to be worry..
Is there somebody know that in 1 week there are 2 days that you don't need to be worried?
Monday..no
Tuesday..no
Wednesday..no
Thursday..no
Friday..no
Saturday..no
Sunday..no..
Are you confused guys..? :P

Ok..ok..i will tell you which day i mean..
The first day is the day that already we passed..
Yes..
The day when we lied
The day when we hurted someone we love
The day when we did something stupid
The day when we didn't have money
That day are gone..we can't take back that day with all money you have now..we can't do anything
So..why we should be worry..?

The second day is the day in the future..
The day when we don't know what will happen
Yes we don't know something that is not happen yet.."is not happen yet"
We don't know until when we will live
We don't know will be rich or not in the future
We don't know we will meet our patner of life or still be single
So why we should be worry..?

Why we should be worried by two days above if we still can fight today..we still can struggle today..we still survive today..we still learn today..
And we still can do our best today..we still can show our love to people we love today..

Hello versus Good Bye

This posting I dedicate for Michael Daheim..someone who teach me a lot about love..

There is always good bye in every hello..
Yah..pasti ada perpisahan di setiap pertemuan..

We want or not..there is always good bye in every hello..
But let's learn about life from parking man..
The parking man have a lot of car or motorbike that park in the park area..they have responsibility to take care, to manage their car when it is still in their area..but when the owner of the car or the motorbike comes and want to take their car or motorbike, the parking man will give it back wisely.

Take some lesson from the small ilustrate above..
All we have in the world now is only a gift from GOD,
Job
House
Car
Someone we love
etc.
All of things above are gift from GOD, we must take care of it, we must manage it wisely, we must be thankful with what we have and when GOD says that He want to take it back with His way, we must release it wisely..

There will be a moment when GOD want to take what we have so we must say good bye with it..sometimes His way looks so cruel..unfair..but if we learn from parking man ilustrate we should be accept it wisely that there is a moment that we must be separate with all we have..
Because GOD always have the best plan for us behind the loosing moment..
Maybe the good bye moment is making us stronger than before..maybe good bye moment is for finding the better one..Maybe the good bye moment is for us to learn more about life..etc.

I know GOD have a beautiful plan for us because GOD never fail..because GOD made us met each other with a reason..because something happen with a reason..

This moment will make us stronger..Our dream will come true..
This good bye moment is for making us stronger than before.. This good bye moment is for making us realize how deep are our love..This good bye moment is for making us realize that we need each other..This good bye moment is for making me realize that I love you more than anything..This good bye moment is for making me learn how to survive..how to love someone deeply..how to be patience..how to wait..how to have a dream..

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for teaching me a lot about love..

I LOVE YOU

This post is only about reflection what I feel inside.. If some people don't agree with what I wrote..so they can write their post by themself.. :P hehehe I love you..only three words but have million meaning..
Ya ya..sometimes I'm thinking what is the meaning of I love you..it should be spoken or it is enough only show it..
LOVE is a feeling that can't be described..only can feel it..and this feeling will make your life not only more beautiful but also more complicated.. In love, you will always want to make the people you love happy, you want that everything you do can make them happy.. But, we know that sometimes we don't have power enough to make all the things run well as we want..
And will the love stays foverer...?
This is the question.. Will the love stay foverer although the way will be hard in the future..?
Will the love stay forever although there is million kilometre spaces..?
Will the love stay forever although people that you love leave you..?
 We know the answer..it is difficult to find a love that will stay forever..never change whatever will be..only the mother's love and the GOD's love that will stay forever..
BUT for me..
As long as I know..and as long as I feel..
GOD will show you the sign..why it never succes with other..because your real love will come in the right time..in the right place and with the right person..

And now I feel it..when I fall in love..it will be forever..and for me I LOVE YOU always foverer more..

M.I.S.S

What do you think about the tittle of my post above..? Miss can be missing something.. But can be the calling for young lady.. Of course the post will be about missing something..missing someone..or missing anything.. What do you really miss when you are apart from someone you love..? The person..? The moment..? The memories..? And what you do to heal the missing..? When you really love someone..when you really miss someone..you will miss all the things..not only the part.. You will miss the person..you will miss the moment you had..you will miss the moment you will have together.. Same like when you really love someone..because love is not only about kissing, hugging, cuddling, meeting..but also about trusting, sharing, believing, supporting each other.. And missing or loving like above will be hurting..when its fail..so.. Before you have feeling like above make sure that your partner have some feeling like you..because two persons who really love and miss each other will do anything to make their partner feel happy not getting hurt.. The problem is when your partner doesn't have feeling like you have..(remember the lyric of one song "too much love can kill you") The first thing that you must do is accept it..face it..and wake up.. Your life will be more beautiful with love but your life will be easier without love.. So wake up guys..\(^_^)/ Catch your dreams..Continue your life.. But unfortunately..My dream is with you..and my life is you.. T_T

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Birthday means something..

This date 27 years ago..God gave me chance to start learning a lot of things.. from sad..terrible..hard..until thing that we call happiness.. This year means my chance to live in the world decrease 1time..and i'm still progressing to be a better better person..still being myself..still giving my best..and and and want to say thank you to all people who still love me and stand by my side although have known my a lot of weakness.. i know it is not enough only say thank you here..hehe.. Happy birthday to me..